Developing Resolve
Recent events in my life are causing me to rethink a lot of things in my life… so I think I’ll start on my 2009 resolutions…
-STOP living only in the future, and start enjoying life in the moment. Every job I go into, I spend the majority of the time with one foot out of the door. That isn’t what has made me successful- it’s the fact that I do really good work when I’m concentrating on the task at hand instead of looking at a future goal. I live in a great city with great friends, but I don’t explore the city and I actively avoid the friends because I’m too busy applying for job transfers to LA or London. This has to stop. I need to really appreciate what I have NOW; only then can I progress.
-Leave the self concious bullshit behind, and start enjoying myself.
-Find a hobby that takes me outdoors.
-Quit relying on other people to keep me happy. That lessens my expectations for others, and makes me love and appreciate them more for who they are and what they do NOW, instead of who I want them to be and what I want them to do in the future.
-Return to dance classes and yoga classes again.
-Join either a book club or knitting club in town. I’d like to meet more sane friends who are female and share my interests.
-Go to shows more often and get to know and understand the Atlanta music scene a bit better. I know there are some talented indie artists out there- finding them should be fun.
-Play “Moonlight Sonata” on the piano from memory.
-Record 10 songs, put on myspace. Dismiss recently acquired shyness, and show what I’ve got goin’ on.
I may add to this later. These are just the things that I’m working on RIGHT NOW. I’m also looking to make less lists, stop categorizing my achievements and see things from a wider perspective.
Whew. I’m much happier after a few revelations.
**Thank you to Chris Fudurich for indirectly helping me make this list over the past 6 months. Yeah… This is why we’re friends.
emergency
Haven’t gone to sleep all night. Paramedics picked up Grandma very early this morning.
Parents are at hospital.
I’m home waiting for other grandparents (dad’s side) to wake up so I can tell them what happened.
Knitting a prayer/comfort shawl for Grandma WHEN she comes home from the hospital. 
She’s a fighter.
But she could also use your prayers. So could my mummy. And my dad. Not the praying type? A few positive thoughts you have left over during this holiday season would be appreciated.
**UPDATE** Grandma is still in the hospital, but apparently she’s doing much better. She will have surgery on Monday, and from there, we’ll see how everything goes. Gosh, this has been such a rough holiday on my parents already! First the other grandparents get stranded in Houston because of the weather, now this. Oh, and apparently grandma has been living with bladder cancer for about 6 years now– and no one told me. We really have communication issues in this family, don’t we? In any case, Grandma will get through this, and so will the rest of the family. My mom and dad deserve a happy Christmas, and I’ll do whatever I can to make that happen!
